February 15th, 2014. 

Bathroom floor-waiting for bubble bath to fill up. 

Well there it is. I decided to take on a second job. When I got my first job they asked me where I hoped to be in five years. I told them that I wanted to be financially independent from my parents. 

My parents are wonderful and supportive. We get along very well, it's embarrassing for me though. . .to rely on them so much. I work as an office manager for a staffing company, and only make 10 dollars an hour. If I think about that fact too much I get depressed that I wasted so much money on college. . .to only end up with a low paying job that wouldn't support anyone without some sort of assistance. . .whether it be parents or the government. 

There is a certain amount of shame in receiving help, and that shame intensifies the older you get. At 23 years old, I am not anxious for the shame to build. It's why I decided to work another job. At least double my income and put half of it into savings for when I am cut off. 

My current savings account has a little over 2000 dollars in it, the name of the account is, "Japan" When I opened it, I planned on saving enough money to visit Tokyo and stay in a decent hotel. 

The more time that passes after graduation, the less likely I feel that I will ever blow my savings on a trip. I think I may keep pretending to myself and the world that I will. It makes me sound somewhat interesting, and it is a dream of mine that I hope someday will come true.